Log in

July 2011

Powered by LiveJournal.com

This is definitely either a dilemma or a Morton's fork

Options for next year:

1. Go to Edinburgh
Advantages: My friends are there, It's a gorgeous city, get to live away from home, good nightlife, good for psychology
Disadvantages: I understand that apart from my friends (and probably, I concede, a few others) the majority of people there are snobbish preps of the kind I'm trying to get away from. Rubbish for politics and sociology. Crap for mixing different types of subjects. Not as much of a buzz about it, not intellectual in the same way, not the same groundedness or diversity among the students at all. No choice of union. Not much of an alternative scene.

2. Go to Stirling
Advantages: It's a university. And it's in quite a pretty setting. Get to live away from home
Disadvantages: It's a new university so the degree would be worth less. The only people I've known who went there were Chris's parents who are a psychotic fascist and a frumpy doormat, and Sophie's brother whom I have nothing against and know very little about but according to Sophie he never does anything at all with his life. So I'm wondering about the kind of people that go there. Why do they go there? Is it just because they didn't get in anywhere else? Surely if they were really clever/passionate they'd be doing their subject at a more respected uni? Surely if they were really good fun they'd go to a city uni? Might be boring as hell and filled with dull dim people. There again it might be filled with lovely people but you just can't tell in advance and I'm not sure I want to take the risk--and it didn't look that exciting when I was there.

3. Don't go to uni, find something else to do
Hmm, I could start up a vintage clothes shop or I could make cakes for Top Tier or become a gay romance novelist or someone who thinks up ideas for new chocolate bars or be the frontgirl of a band. That would all be pretty awesome. But mind you, travelling in time would be pretty awesome and I don't see it happening.
Actually, some normal non-graduate jobs do seem like they'd be pretty good fun to me, but they pay craply.

4. Gap Yah
Advantages: Supposedly build employability skills, support myself, 'find myself' (ick ick icky yanky pop-psych phrasing). Understand what I want to do, experience the real world.
Disadvantages: Parents are both MASSIVELY against it and will definitely refuse to give me any money if I can't get a job--I mean literally ANY money--and will probably nag and guilt-trip me all the way through the year even if I do get a job, which is unlikely. And this is going to sound ridiculously snobby but I hate the thought of going to college? I mean, college. Who goes to college? Apart from Chris, who I don't exactly aspire to be.
Not just that though. I actually wonder whether more highers are going to do me any good at all. I mean, by the end of this year I'll hopefully have seven highers. Most people get into university with five or even four. So what's the point of having ten? I'll have forgotten all the stuff I learned in the first lot by then anyway. I've already forgotten probably about 60% of it. I've spent the past two years of my life doing highers and advanced highers, another one seems completely daft.
In any case, there is something fundamentally not-fun about the idea of living friendless and penniless and possessionless and funless in my parents' house being nagged for a whole year.


You're very angry in this...and there's nothing wrong with stirling uni or college, at all...and chris' mum is lovely...calm down ffs. at least you have offers, some people don't have any x
Oh I know :( I was just pissed off and PMSy because people kept telling me I would definitely get a conditional to Glasgow. But yeah, at least I have other options.

Re: Chris's mum, yeah the frumpy was too harsh of me because I was in a super pissed-off and bitchy mood when I wrote this, but you wouldn't believe the kind of stuff she lets her sons and husband get away with saying right in front of her...but yeah, irrelevant really. It was more like one part of a generally irrational aversion to the uni--but weren't you saying the other day that you thought a degree from there would be worth less than a degree from an old uni?

Like I say the trouble with college is that it would be like a third year of doing highers and ten highers is kind of pointless and I'd feel like a stick-in-the-mud.
Oh I know shit happens, I was just going through my options. Not asking for sympathy...just talking to myself really :)

Obviously I'm sorry if it came across that way and I didn't mean it to--like I said, Stirling might well be filled with lovely people, it's just that I wonder, given that it didn't strike me as the most exciting or intellectual university, if the people I would have more in common with there might only be there because it's their second choice and might therefore be bored stiff. And that would explain why when I went to the open days, Glasgow seemed really kind of bubbly and fun and all the people seemed really interested and Stirling didn't have that feel about it at all, either on the open day or the day I just went down to spy on the uni. Also, whenever you go past Glasgow they've always got something going on with the union, or student politics, whereas the people at Stirling were just kind of talking and looking bored and...I dunno, it just doesn't seem to have a buzz.

I don't claim to know what every group of people at Edinburgh is like, but I do know that when I went there on the open day they mostly seemed to be scottish private school kids. I'm thinking about the types of people who think that if you don't party every weekend you're a social reject or that it's fun to make those awful pictures where two girls kiss a guy's cheeks wearing revealing clothing and wear juicy couture tracksuits and flirt with Richie Murray and the same people who think it's a fun idea to make a 'Gay Poll'. Like after that happened and we all agreed it was so dickish we were like 'well at least we'll never have to see them again', but I got the impression that Edinburgh would be filled with that type of person because it's exactly the kind of uni that the snobbiest people from our school, from glasgow academy etc, choose to go to.

It doesn't mean I think they're *all* dicks; like I said, our friends and some others there will be decent, and I can believe that your brother and his friends are decent. But there are decent, interesting and individual people in our school as well, we're still in the minority. On the Glasgow open day it seemed that there were people of different races and classes and dress styles mingling together and they all looked interested at the lectures and asked questions: Edinburgh seemed to be groups of cliquey people who all looked pretty much how our school looks on a non-uniform day. My mum heard from someone who used to work there that students at Edinburgh are definitely more private-school types who are all the same type of people and he thought they tended to seem snobby and aloof--just saying.

I think you're maybe taking my silly exaggurated rant a bit too literally xx
And thanks for the sympathy anyway of course, it's very lovely of you to care even when I just insulted your brother's uni :P xxxxx